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I was hard at work one Monday morning in downtown Memphis when the phone rang. Mondays were especially busy for a director of Youth for Christ. The phone call was from one of my board members, an enthusiastic layman who always moved me by his consistent witness and love for Jesus Christ. Ed had been an uncompromising friend to me and a great support to my ministry.
“I need to see you for a few minutes this morning,” he said in a
businesslike tone.
“Impossible, Ed,” I replied. “It can’t be today. Could we meet midweek?”
“No, Rick, it has to be now. I’ll come down and wait for a break in your
I heard a click. The line was dead.
Ed came and sat in my office as I continued with my work. Then I heard him ask quietly, “Rick, have you ever thought much about the Judgment Seat of Christ?”
I did not even look up from my papers. “Oh, I know there’ll be one, Ed. .
. .”
There was silence. When I finally glanced up in curiosity, I saw tears
streaming down his face. I felt ashamed.
“Oh, Ed, forgive me! Obviously you have something to share that’s far more important than this work.” Grabbing my Bible, I turned my chair toward my friend. “O.K., what’s on your mind? I think I’m ready.”
For almost three hours Ed walked me through the Scriptures on the Judgment Seat of Christ. When he finished, he put his hand on my shoulder and prayed a simple, fervent prayer. Then he stood up, hugged me and was gone. I was stunned. Years earlier Ed had been a Golden Gloves boxing champion. Had he slammed me with his fist, he could not have made a bigger impact on me than he had that morning.
I picked up the phone and dialed my secretary. “Verla, I need to go home.
Please line up others to do my assignments during the next few days.”
“Are you sick?” she asked in a motherly tone.
“Yes,” I replied, “but not in the way you think. I can’t talk about it
right now.”
“All right,” she replied. “I’ll take care of everything. You go on home.”
My car was parked behind the mission. Sobbing and praying at the same
time, I drove the ten miles out Poplar Boulevard toward my garage
apartment. Twice I had to veer to the curb and wait to regain my
As I drove I was suddenly reminded of a dreadful experience in my freshman year of college.
I had achieved a high enough grade point average during my first semester to allow me the privilege of not having absences count against me during the second semester. Without that privilege an automatic grade reduction would begin after three absences in any class.
In my immaturity I had abused the privilege, particularly in one class,
which I had skipped for two weeks in a row. On the day I returned to that
class, I arrived ten minutes early and was shocked to find all the
students already in their seats, notebooks open. My heart skipped a beat.
I sat down quickly beside a friend.
“What’s going on, Jim?” I asked desperately.
He appeared amused. “You ought to come around more often, Rick. We do a lot of exciting things around here. Today is the midterm exam!”
The shock on my face must have been obvious. “You’ve got to be kidding!” I exclaimed. Then, feeling foolish and immature, I raced outside and caught the professor on his way into the classroom.
Dr. Rogers peered at me over the top of his glasses.
“Dr. Rogers, sir,” I stuttered. “Sir, I understand you’re giving a midterm
exam this morning. . . .”
“That’s correct,” he said, frowning, probably knowing what was coming
Apologizing for my negligence, I pleaded for one more day to prepare.
Dr. Rogers was a kind man, but he answered firmly, “Mr. Howard, I can’t
punish you for missing class, but you are nonetheless responsible for
everything that goes on here. You must take the exam this morning or
receive an automatic F on this test.”
I can still remember staring at that exam and at my blank answer form with
a sinking feeling in my stomach. It was a moment I wish I could forget.
As I drove to my apartment after Ed’s visit, that same feeling was in my
stomach. A far more serious exam was now before me and I knew nothing about it. I was totally unprepared. How could I have treated so lightly the most important exam I will ever face?
I had been in the ministry for seven years, and a measure of genuine
blessing and fruitfulness was evident. But I had never heard even one
message on the Judgment Seat of Christ, let alone studied the subject for
myself. I entered the apartment and began four days of intense study,
poring over every Scripture and teaching I could find on the subject.
Something was about to happen that would boggle my mind-and bring me back to a vivid experience from my youth.
When I was a boy, my father always called me Rick or Ricky. The notable
exceptions were times during my teenage years when Dad called me to
account for my actions. “Richard,” he would say, “give account of
yourself!” I knew what he meant: “Where were you? Who were you with? What did you do?”
I would never have lied to my father. I never even considered lying to him
(although I did not always think he needed to know all the details!). As I
grew older, however, I came to understand his concern and could see the
wisdom of “throwing myself on the mercy of the court.”
I will never forget one spring evening in 1956. I was in high school and
had just begun to drive. My father had recently purchased a new car, a
1955 Chevrolet sports coupe with a black front, white top and back, and
white vinyl interior. It was beautiful!-only the second new car of Dad’s
life. My family did not own our home and never had a bank account. That
car was our only valuable possession.
The evening came when I was finally given permission to drive the car on a date. My girlfriend sat up front, and my best friend and his girl sat in
the back seat. We were so proud driving through town! I was extremely
cautious because the road seemed awfully narrow and the car as wide as a boat. At the end of the evening, I took my girlfriend home first. She
lived down a long, private lane. I parked carefully, walked her to the
front door and performed the expected amenities.
When I returned, I noticed that my friends had moved to the front seat.
What I did not notice was that the front door on the passenger side had
been left partially open. As I put the car into reverse and backed down
the narrow driveway, a tree caught the edge of the open door, crushing it
into the front fender.
That dreadful crunch still turns my stomach these many years later. I knew
that when I got home, Dad would say, “Richard, give account of yourself.”
It was a moment I was not looking forward to. Not willfully but carelessly
I had abused my privilege. That car was precious to my family, and I was
returning it worth less than when it had been entrusted to me.
In just such a way, God’s most treasured possession, His only Son, was
given at great cost to make salvation and fruitfulness possible. We will
give account for what we have done with this precious gift.
Terror in the Presence of the Lord
In the four days I spent studying in my apartment, I read one particular
passage at least fourteen times. 1 Corinthians 3:10-15 became dominant in my thinking:
"Let each man take care how he builds upon [the foundation]…which is Jesus Christ. Now if any one builds on the foundation with gold, silver,
precious stones, wood, hay, stubble-each man’s work will become manifest; for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each one has done. If the work which any man has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. If any man’s work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire."
On the night of the fourth day, I fell asleep with my clothes on, too
exhausted emotionally and physically to change for bed. Several hours
later I awakened, my heart pounding and my clothes plastered to my body
with perspiration. I had seen a vision of the Judgment Seat of Christ. I
had difficulty catching my breath. I was weeping-and my eyes were wide
open in terror!
I well knew the scriptural description of the Judgment Seat, but I was
completely unprepared for the drama and terror of that moment. The Christ I saw bore no resemblance to the Warner Sallman painting that hung in my childhood bedroom, which portrayed Jesus as “gentle, meek and mild” with chestnut brown locks and blue eyes. I saw Christ as He appears in the first chapter of Revelation:
"His head and hair were white like wool, as white as snow, and his eyes
were like blazing fire. His feet were like bronze glowing in a furnace,
and his voice was like the sound of rushing waters."
Revelation 1:14-15, NIV
His presence was awesome and startling, and He was wearing a judge’s robe. In my vision I saw the redeemed, as numerous as endless waves of wheat in a Kansas grainfield. All Christians of every generation were there. I had been brought up in small Christian groups, so the multitudes of white-robed believers astonished me. As I gazed on the immensity of the gathered Church, I recalled a time when I stood on the deck of the old
Cunard liner, the Queen Mary, and marveled at the vastness of the Atlantic Ocean.
What came next was not a sight but a sound. I heard two contrasting and
clashing sounds. The first was crying-the weeping and wailing I had always associated with the damned. Yet I knew instinctively that no lost people were here. This was the gathered redeemed. In contrast I heard thunderous rejoicing. What release! What praise! It sounded like a thousand Christian camp meetings rolled into one, like the “Hallelujah Chorus” sung by a multitude of choirs.
What an intense contrast!-uncontrollable weeping and unrestrained praise. The sounds clashed like great opposing cymbals: weeping and rejoicing, sorrow and praise-human responses to loss and reward.
Then my eyes were drawn to a group of Christians on my right. I saw a
figure among them that I knew to be the Christ. Jesus carried a torch of
fire in His hand, similar to an Olympic torch. After speaking to each
Christian, Jesus dropped the flaming torch into the pile of stubble and
grass at the feet of each believer. What was revealed by the resulting
flash of fire brought a cry of sorrow or joy from the believer.
My eyes immediately fell to my own feet, and my deepest fears were
realized. Wood, grass and hay were piled there.
I felt sweat on the palms of my hands and cried out, more to myself than
to anyone around: “O God, is this all I have to show for seven years of
ministry? Have my motives and my work been so impure?”
Immediately I heard these words in my spirit: Son, look around.
I quickly noticed that every believer had a similar stack at his or her
feet. Some stacks were smaller than mine and others larger, but I saw no
one without a stack of grass and stubble.
Just as clearly I heard the Spirit say, Son, only when all the dross is
burned will what remains be revealed. Wait for the fire.
My Spiritual Mentor
I lifted my eyes from the stack at my feet. I was standing in a small
circle of familiar people. My attention was drawn across the circle to the
face of a woman who had been very supportive of me in my father’s
congregation in Sharon, Pennsylvania. Mrs. Shipton and her husband had sat in the front row during every service. For many years she had led the
congregation in monthly missionary services, which had influenced my life
greatly. Furthermore she had taught me when I was a primary student in
Sunday school.
Because I had been born later in my parents’ lives, my natural
grandparents were deceased and she had always been “Grandma Shipton” to me. She had interceded for me faithfully, and a bond had formed between us.
When I became a rebellious teenager and drifted away from spiritual
priorities, she would come up to me, put her small hand on my shoulder and say, “Ricky, son, I’m praying for you. God has a great purpose for your life!”
I would shake her hand politely from my shoulder and say with amusement, “Don’t you pray for me, Grandma Shipton!”  I couldn’t have meant it more. I knew God answered her prayers, and at that moment, that was the last thing I wanted.
One Sunday night during my years of rebellion, I was sitting with some
other teenagers in our customary place, the rear pew. We had passed
pictures and notes during my father’s sermon. But it was usually not the
sermon that brought conviction in those days; it was the altar call.
Sometimes the sermon lasted only fifteen minutes, while the call to walk
forward and commit our lives fully to Christ stretched out for more than
an hour.
When I stood during the altar call on this particular night, God began
dealing with me. My head was bowed, my eyes were closed and my hands gripped the back of the pew in front of me. Then, instinctively, I knew Grandma Shipton was coming for me! I did not see her coming, I did not hear her footsteps and I had never known her to approach someone personally during an altar call. But I knew she was coming for me. Soon I felt her hand on my shoulder. Her words were not a request but a command - a command backed by fourteen years of prayer.
“Son,” she said, “it’s time.”
I broke down like a little child as she led me to the altar. I repented
and surrendered to the Lordship of Jesus Christ.
During my vision the Lord reminded me of the last time I had seen Grandma Shipton on the earth. She was in her nineties and partially blind. She had become quite senile and often could not remember or recognize my dad when he visited her, although he had been her pastor for almost thirty years. Every morning her daughter, Ione, dressed her, sat her in her favorite rocking chair in the darkened living room, put her shawl across her shoulders and placed her old, worn Bible on her lap.
I had just returned to my parents’ home for Christmas vacation. My
ministry had taken me to Tennessee and I seldom kept in touch with my old home church in Pennsylvania. During my vacation Dad had said, “Son, I think you should come with me today to visit Grandma Shipton. It’s
probably the last time you’ll see her alive.” I accompanied him, although
I felt that little purpose could be served by visiting her in that
When we arrived at the simple, two-story frame house, Ione met us at the
door. She reminded me that Grandma now seldom recognized even her closest family, but she thanked me nonetheless for coming. While Dad and Ione talked in the entry, I stepped across the threshold into the living room. Suddenly I heard her voice.
“Ricky, son, is that you? Ricky, I pray for you every day. God has a great
work for you to do.”
I was startled. Was I hearing things? No, Dad and Ione stood behind me,
with looks of shock on their faces.
She did not speak another sensible word in the hour that followed. Her
conversation was rambling and disconnected. But God had allowed her spirit
one clear, unrepeatable moment. She was irrevocably bonded to that little
boy through prayer and the vision God had given her for his life.
In my vision a voice, like the sound of many waters, startled me out of my
“Lily Shipton.”
Jesus Christ Himself was standing before my spiritual mentor. I do not
think I had ever heard her first name-certainly not that I remembered.
“Lily Shipton,” Jesus said again. “Well done, thou good and faithful
He touched the torch to the grass and stubble at her feet. It burned
instantly in a flash of fire. When the flames had consumed the stubble, I
saw a pile of gold, silver and precious jewels at her feet.
She bent over to gather the valuables. Taking them in her arms, she laid
them at Jesus’ feet and began to praise the Lord. To this day I remember
that spirit of praise: “I love You, Jesus! I love You, Jesus!” I will never forget what happened next.
An Unchangeable Verdict
My attention was drawn to a young man I had gone to school with seven
years earlier. I had not seen Todd (not his real name) for several years
but knew instinctively why he stood there with me at this vision of
Christ’s Judgment Seat. We had been bonded together despite our
What a contrast we had made! He was tall and handsome, a leader within the student body at his college. I was a scrawny, underdeveloped teenager. Although he was a college student and I a mere high school sophomore, we had attended classes at the same Bible school and had grown very close because of our mutual spiritual commitment. We each received the call to preach during the same spiritual emphasis week and met frequently for prayer and study from that time forward. Todd often prayed with great fervency for the people of Africa, believing that the Lord was calling him to mission work there.
My friend was dating a beautiful girl from the East Coast. She came from a wealthy family, ranked near the top of her class in college and was
selected homecoming queen.
One spring evening in Georgia, while Todd and I sat in his car, he told me
that he had proposed to this beautiful girl. My heart sank when he
recounted how she had responded: “I love you and I’ll marry you, but not
if you become a preacher, and certainly not if you become a missionary.”
Although this girl professed to be a Christian, I feared their marriage
would compromise the call of God on Todd’s life. I pleaded with him to
reconsider but his mind was made up. Placing his hand on my shoulder like a big brother, he said, “It’s all right, Ricky. I know what I’m doing.
Don’t worry, friend.”
Those words still haunt me.
Now, out of the corner of my eye, I saw the majestic Christ approach my
friend. The flaming torch He carried was spitting sparks out of its
intensity. Christ called Todd by a nickname used only by some of his
closest friends, then lowered the torch to the pile at his feet.
Suddenly all was burned. Nothing remained but a blackened circle of earth. That black spot is engraved on my mind. To this day it makes me shudder. As Todd came to the full realization that he had not pleased his Master but had wasted his life, he covered his face with his hands and began to weep and groan in agony.
I have no words for what I saw and felt. Not a day has passed since my
vision that I have not thought about that blackened circle of earth. What
a tragedy! Whether a person receives great reward or no reward at all, the verdict at the Judgment Seat is unchangeable.
My Turn
In my vision Jesus then approached me. I saw the Christ of Revelation
whose eyes were blazing fire. He stood before me, looked directly into my
eyes and spoke one word: “Richard.” I saw the torch dropping toward the
grass and straw at my feet.
Suddenly I started out of my sleep. The vision ended abruptly. My heart
was pounding, my clothes were plastered to my body with perspiration and I was weeping profusely. Moving from my bed to my knees, I prayed during the next two or three hours until the sun rose. I said to the Holy Spirit, Thank You! Thank You for showing me this!
That morning I resolved, There will be a new focus in my life. I made
phone calls. I wrote letters. I got rid of bitterness. I reconciled with
people. I changed some habits. Because in the light of the Judgment Seat
of Christ, there were things in my life I did not want there, and other
things not in my life I did want there.
After the vision I felt washed and cleansed, determined and excited. I
began taking full responsibility for my actions, knowing they would count
for eternity.
My life has been transformed. It has become more effective, more fruitful,
more meaningful, more joyful. Although this vision took place more than
thirty years ago, not a day goes by that I do not think about the Judgment
Seat of Christ. It really is going to happen!
What does the Bible say about how to prepare for that awesome Day? How do we lay up treasures in heaven? How do we become abundantly fruitful for the sake of Christ’s Kingdom? How do we increase our healthy fear of God?
How do we purify our motives and develop a servant’s heart? In short, how can we live in such a way that our lives will delight the heart of God?
The rest of this book is dedicated to helping you get ready.


- Chapter One of the book, This Was Your Life,
   by Rick Howard & Jamie Lash.  
Many books claim to be life-changing.  This one actually is.

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"The skilled approach taken by Rick Howard and Jamie Lash to this awe-inspiring theme is peculiar in this respect:  It is both entertaining and frightening.  If 'entertaining' seems glib, know that it is only in the sense that it is highly engrossing.   If 'frightening' seems undesirable, know it is only in the sense that one is led to a new awareness of our ultimate accountability for our life. 

It may strike some as a superficial generalization to say that every Christian should hear this message, but it seems in today's mental and moral environment that it would merit such priority consideration. This message is a sobering summons to our souls - a sensitively discussed but starkly honest presentation which will enrich the viewer.  We need the weight of such teaching to balance the truths of our expectations of God's blessings with the truth of God's expectations of us.  Here is ballast for the soul - a blessing in both smooth and stormy times."

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"A life-changing book. Far from a depressing tone of doom and destruction, This Was Your Life! covers nearly every aspect of Christian discipleship recognizing that how we live our lives affects our heavenly rewards."    Woman's Touch
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“Uniformly excellent.  One of the best guides to the basic Christian life I have ever read.  Not once did the authors dip into the pool of selfish theology.  This is a book that shows how to get your eyes off of yourself and on the prize.  And what a prize it is.”  
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“This is a wonderful book!  If you long to hear Jesus say, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant’--this book is for you.”
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“Every follower of Christ should read this book.  I wish I had this guide much earlier in my Christian walk.  I would not have wasted so many years seeking man’s approval and praise.  The authors guide the reader to an uplifting knowledge of how to truly follow Christ.  The book is filled with practical instruction on how to change.  I have already given away ten copies to friends.  After reading it, several have said, 'This is
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“I believe that after THE GOSPEL, this is THE most important truth that anyone can ever hear.  If believers really embrace this, their lives will never be the same.  Since I read ‘This Was Your Life!’ in l999, there is not a day that I do not think about living for THAT DAY instead of just TODAY.   I have now bought over 400 copies of the book and about 20 copies of the video series!  I have distributed these copies resulting in
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“This Was Your Life!” has made a huge impact on my family.  Not only have I given several copies away, but my wife is an avid reader, and she has told countless people that it’s the best book she’s ever read.”
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“There is a lot of great information available through various sources, but this series is heart-changing and life-changing.  God is renewing my mind and transforming my thought patterns, removing the lies and false teachings I had been programmed to believe.  The Truth will set you free! I cannot tell you how much these videos are impacting my life.” 
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