up as an atheist. I thought that the reason I didn't believe
was the lack of evidence that I could see or touch. I kept
asking God to show me a sign if He was really there. He
didn’t. Despite nine months of searching, I was just as
alienated from God as I had ever been.
I remember the shock it was when God
revealed to me that what I thought was the obstacle wasn't the
obstacle at all! The obstacle was pride and hardness of heart.
It wasn’t a head problem; it was a heart problem. I had to
come to the place where I was willing to let God be God over
my life. Was I willing to confess (i.e. admit) that Jesus is
Years ago Adrian Rogers counseled with a NASA
scientist and his severely depressed wife. The wife pointed to
her husband and said, "My problem is him." She went on to
explain that her husband was a drinker, a liar, and an
adulterer. Dr. Rogers asked the man if he were a Christian.
"No!" the man laughed. "I'm an atheist."
"Really?" Dr. Rogers replied. "That means
you're someone who knows that God does not exist."
"That's right," said the man.
"Would it be fair to say that you don't know
all there is to know in the universe?"
"Would it be generous to say you know half of
all there is to know?"
"Wouldn't it be possible that God's existence
might be in the half you don't know?"
"Okay, but I don't think He exists."
"Well then, you're not an atheist; you're an
agnostic. You're a doubter."
"Yes, and I'm a big one."
"It doesn't matter what size you are. I want
to know what kind you are."
"What kinds are there?"
"There are honest doubters and dishonest
doubters. An honest doubter is willing to search out the truth
and live by the results; a dishonest doubter doesn’t want to
know the truth. He can't find God for the same reason a thief
can't find a policeman."
"I want to know the truth."
"Would you like to prove that God exists?"
"It can't be done."
"It can be done. You've just been in the
wrong laboratory. Jesus said, 'If any man's will is to do His
will, he will know whether my teaching is from God or whether I
am speaking on my own authority' (John 7:17). I suggest you read
one chapter of the book of John each day, but before you do,
pray something like this, 'God, I don't know if You're there, I
don't know if the Bible is true, I don't know if Jesus is Your
Son. But if You show me that You are there, that the Bible is
true, and that Jesus is Your Son, then I will follow You. My
will is to do your will."
The man agreed. About three weeks later he
returned to Dr. Rogers's office and invited Jesus Christ to be
his Savior and Lord.
A man might be convinced that he’s being very
sincere in his search for God, but until he humbles himself, he
will never find Him.