I grew up as an atheist. I thought that the reason I didn't believe was the lack of evidence that I could see or touch. I kept asking God to show me a sign if He was really there. He didn’t. Despite nine months of searching, I was just as alienated from God as I had ever been.

I remember the shock it was when God revealed to me that what I thought was the obstacle wasn't the obstacle at all! The obstacle was pride and hardness of heart. It wasn’t a head problem; it was a heart problem. I had to come to the place where I was willing to let God be God over my life. Was I willing to confess (i.e. admit) that Jesus is Lord?

Years ago Adrian Rogers counseled with a NASA scientist and his severely depressed wife. The wife pointed to her husband and said, "My problem is him." She went on to explain that her husband was a drinker, a liar, and an adulterer. Dr. Rogers asked the man if he were a Christian. "No!" the man laughed. "I'm an atheist."

"Really?" Dr. Rogers replied. "That means you're someone who knows that God does not exist."

"That's right," said the man.

"Would it be fair to say that you don't know all there is to know in the universe?"

"Of course."

"Would it be generous to say you know half of all there is to know?"


"Wouldn't it be possible that God's existence might be in the half you don't know?"

"Okay, but I don't think He exists."

"Well then, you're not an atheist; you're an agnostic. You're a doubter."

"Yes, and I'm a big one."

"It doesn't matter what size you are. I want to know what kind you are."

"What kinds are there?"

"There are honest doubters and dishonest doubters. An honest doubter is willing to search out the truth and live by the results; a dishonest doubter doesn’t want to know the truth. He can't find God for the same reason a thief can't find a policeman."

"I want to know the truth."

"Would you like to prove that God exists?"

"It can't be done."

"It can be done. You've just been in the wrong laboratory. Jesus said, 'If any man's will is to do His will, he will know whether my teaching is from God or whether I am speaking on my own authority' (John 7:17). I suggest you read one chapter of the book of John each day, but before you do, pray something like this, 'God, I don't know if You're there, I don't know if the Bible is true, I don't know if Jesus is Your Son. But if You show me that You are there, that the Bible is true, and that Jesus is Your Son, then I will follow You. My will is to do your will."

The man agreed. About three weeks later he returned to Dr. Rogers's office and invited Jesus Christ to be his Savior and Lord.

A man might be convinced that he’s being very sincere in his search for God, but until he humbles himself, he will never find Him.


— Jamie Lash                     






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