When I was an atheist,
I asked God to show Himself to me if He were really
there. I asked Him to show me a sign. As a result of my
prayer, nothing happened. No sign. No voice. No nothing.
Because I felt very sincere in my quest to know the
truth, I got frustrated at God for not doing His part.
If God wants us to know Him, why doesn’t He openly do
miracles to reveal Himself? Wouldn’t the whole world
believe if God would just reveal His power?
Apparently not. The Hebrews saw numerous signs and miracles on
their way out of Egypt (including the parting of the Red Sea and
the provision of manna) and yet God later said to Moses, "How long
will this people...not believe in me in spite of all the signs
which I have wrought among them?" (Numbers 14:11)
Likewise, the New Testament says, "Though Jesus had done so
many signs before them, yet they did not believe in him" (John
People sometimes approached Jesus and demanded a sign to prove
who He was. Jesus never obliged. In fact their requests apparently
grieved Him. Mark 8:12 tells us Jesus’ response when the Pharisees
sought from him a sign from heaven, to test him. It says, "He
sighed deeply in his spirit, and said, ‘Why does this generation
seek a sign? Truly, I say to you, no sign shall be given to this
generation.’ And He left them,..."
That’s the same response I got! Years later, God began to give
me some insight as to why He does not respond to such requests. I
was thinking one day about Jesus’ statement, "You shall not test
the Lord your God," and I began wondering, "Why not?" Why is
testing God forbidden? Suddenly I realized that when we test
something, we are judging that thing. In a relationship, the one
who takes the position of judging the other clearly sees himself
as the superior. Therefore, when man judges God, man is exalting
himself above God.
My problem was that I was approaching God in pride rather than
humility. I was calling the shots. I was asking God to do a little
trick for me to prove Himself, like asking a circus animal to jump
through a hoop. I was a little confused about who was the boss. In
being critical of God for not showing Himself clearly, I was again
exalting myself and judging God. In my pride I concluded that, if
God existed, then He was the one to blame for our
Man’s estrangement from God is not a head problem caused by
deficient evidence; it’s a heart problem caused by pride and
rebellion. Ephesians 4:18 says, "they are alienated from the life
of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their
hardness of heart."